Oregon Trail

Since the day
that i let you leave
nothing has been the same
yet i remain, hung up in this game

All i can do
is look the other way
and pretend that your face
still holds the smile

All i can see
is your sullen eyes
staring into my soul
 into the darkness, where there is no light

I never took the chance
to say goodbye
with this doom surrounding me
with no one left to hound me

Once again
i dream of your face
lost again
in the blue hue, of your eyes

So very small
this distance between us
to travel so far
and gain no ground

Your face i see
and the mirror knows
the truth and the lies

My trust is gone
what awaits us
on the other side

Far away
from your arms i fade
locked away
nothing to keep the wolves at bay

Silently i tremble
looking back to the days
that you were close
when all we had was each other

Were you ashamed
to have me by your side
was i to blame
for the troubles of the past

All i can do
is look the other way
and pretend that you miss me still

Not a single begotten gain
nothing here, and no one remains
i feel i failed you
i never had the chance to feel

This ill will begotten
how i wish i could feel
my heart knows the deal
yet it remains rotten

Broken, can you make me feel
since the day you left
nothing holds its sway

I am haunted
by the failure you see before you
i am hunted
never to die

Look the other way
i don't want to be seen
i fail as i fall
into the darkness of night
i silently fall into nothingness

i feel i failed
i feel i failed you
i feel i failed you  again
left alone, with only you in my brain

Cold now
nothing can warm this heart of mine
forever begotten
this feeling i have somehow gotten

All i can do
is pretend that I'm OK
can you forgive me
can you believe me